it has only been about 3 weeks since mom left my bro and i alone... since then we have been almost fully independent... at times my bro would have to stay in camp for duties like tonight... and it makes me wonder... is silence golden or is it deafening?
when the family was around in singapore i was so easily irritated by them... all the noise and issues that arised... was quite stifling actually... however now i can go through an entire day without opening my mouth to anyone... and some how this feeling is communicated across to my friends whenever they come over... they always sense that the home was missing something that made it look deserted...
i guess it is missing a family... one that lives in it and makes it all roudy and irritates everyone within its doors... independence is a funny word isnt it? in - dependence... kinda agree with the word... it is when you are forced to be independent that you realise that you end up searching for dependence once more....
recently i have been trying to organise a few parties and dinners now and then in the attempt to lifen up the house... in the day the house is a flurry of activities... at night laughter and noise tear through the air... and when they are gone it returns to its solemn state of silence....
why is silence deafening? well it is jarring and irritating just like noise... it can drive you crazy and burst your brains just thinking of it, just like noise... there is a tolerance level for it just like noise... and some times it numbs you from all your senses... just... like... noise....
friends always care
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