男儿当自强,不准哭
well right now it seems like everyone is moving away... bro goes to camp only see him for an hour every week if im lucky.... mom went back to vietnam just this morning... dad still in vietnam not seen him for more than a month now... my maid is going back to indonesia to get married in january... so that basically means that i am all alone by myself for i dont know how long...
question: is this place still a home or is it a house i live in?
Answer: i dont know
question: where is my home?
answer: i dont know
question: what happen to everyone?
answer: i dont know
well it sorta seems like everyone is moving away... relationships with some of my friends havent been all too hunky dory for me too... and again i question myself...
question: why must everything bad come at one shot?
answer: i dont know
well now the burden of the house has been dumped on to me directly... and notice i use the word house not home... i guess i subcontiously found my own answer to the question... i have to burden of taking care of the house... making sure my family still holds.... making sure that i can do well in my studies.... well it is almost too much for me to handle... looking into the light of God as my only hope of help i stand....
people ask me what i want for christmas and i keep silent because all i want in my heart is to spend my christmas with my family.... together... and together we be in this house and turn it into a home...
sigh... well i know that my dad has to be there... but in my heart there is only this one wish that i have... and this is the only wish i keep....
friends always care
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